THE SUNDAY TIMES TOP TEN BESTSELLER ''A lacerating account ... painful but necessary'' EVENING STANDARD ''Beautiful & significant ... Tackles grief with honesty'' DAWN FRENCH ''Very important and moving book'' ALASTAIR CAMPBELL ''A searingly honest book. So much of Rio''s emotional turmoil and deep loss resonated with me.

At the same time I loved his message of hope'' GLORIA HUNNIFORD ''Rio''s courageous story of life, loss, grief and hope'' PRIMA CHRISTMAS GIFT GUIDE, ''Best of the Celebrity Crop'' ''Tender, heartbreaking ... An extraordinary and unforgettable book. *****'' HEAT * * * * * * ''When Rebecca died, the idea that one day I might begin to feel better would have struck me as laughable ... I know how persuasive this kind of permanence thinking can be.

I know too that anyone locked in its grip will laugh if I promise them that their pain will one day ease. It will. Of course it will.

But I know better than to expect anyone to believe me.'' In 2015, former England football star Rio Ferdinand suddenly